Updates

I went to see the doctor again last Thursday, fully expecting to be referred to a psychiatrist. After all, nothing had really changed. He took one look at me, however, and just said “More medicine.” I was a little nonplussed so I asked “Is that all?” His reply – “What else? Do you need me to double your medication?” After telling him the last dosage didn’t really do much until the 4th or 5th day, he decided to double the dosage.

I’m on the 5th day now, and things are finally looking up. At least I don’t get massive mood swings, and my diet seems pretty much back to normal. But there’re still occasional signs of the depression peeking out, such as sudden mood drops and sudden lack of energy. Plus I woke myself up last night muttering in my sleep.

So why am I blogging this? Because a Christian’s life is not entirely rosy, and I do want Mun Yew or any other child I have to know that I struggled with this in the past. No one knows how prevalent depression will be when they are old enough to work, but nonetheless, some knowledge in this area can go a long way if they ever meet any friends with depression. At least they’ll know not to say “Find joy in the Lord, and all will be well” to a clinically depressed person.

Yes, that’s not a good idea. It makes the clinically depressed person feel like he or she is wholly responsible for the feeling of depression. It’s like telling an amputee that he or she should rejoice that he or she doesn’t have a limb. Somewhat correct, but totally tactless, and very very painful.

In other news, Flickr now allows limited video uploads. I am definitely renewing my membership when it’s up for renewal.